so there's this guy who i think about every now and then when i'm strolling around campus. i'll be in a pissy mood or eager to get home or to class or just sort of zoning out on the world, and i'll hear the words he said to me once a few years ago. i must have been a little down, or unhappy with Cal, as i often was during my first two years, and he said: "you know, lisa, you really need to just stop and appreciate how beautiful all THIS is -- the sky, the trees, the grass. it's awesome. you don't see all of it because you've seen it so many times before and you've taken it for granted. but stop and consider how beautiful your surroundings are every now and then. it will make you happy, make you glad to be ALIVE." and it's so true; it's so simple to do, and it's all so beautiful. but at the time, i was skeptical. so he said: "you know what? one night i'll take you around campus and i'll show you what i mean -- the sky, and the stars, and all of it." it was a sweet gesture, totally honest and sincere, one of the few i've ever witnessed in a man. unfortunately, we both forgot about it, and over time, drifted apart. perhaps i'll give him a ring and remind him before i graduate. or maybe i'll just treasure the way he made the scenery, often ignored, dull and indistinct, come alive. either way, i really appreciate any person who can teach me to look at something in a different light. and if he's reading this now...thanks.

two things quickly:

1) what is UP with girls on the phone in the bathroom?!?! damn i'm tryin to DO MY BUSINESS and don't want to broadcast it to whoever she is on the phone with! aren't bathrooms the last refuge from cell phones?? jesus!
2) how eighth grade is this: nine inch nails "closer" followed by violent femmes "add it up"?

did anyone else get suckered into this imatcheroo.com stuff? i got an email from them a few days ago saying that someone had entered my email on the site and i should take a personality test to see if i'm compatible with them. and the email assured me that they don't do mass emails, and that someone had actually entered my email. so i took the test. it was so lame, trust me. but look what i got in the mail today...

iMatcheroo's Connectrix System has matched you with a a Dark brown-hair, Blue-eyed, college student that is currently attending University of California, Berkeley.

if anyone has done this imatcheroo stuff, let me know what this madness is.

JT Snow awaits you. -- email from kimi

you know how absurd it is how much sugar i eat daily? it is really crazy. i have become a junk food fiend. and wouldn't you know, it was MY MOM who pointed it out and subsequently lectured me on it. it all started because of soda. i told her i wouldn't mind it if she bought me some soda for my weekly ration of food (i know i'm a brat), and also some sour cream and onion chips, and maybe some of those cookies too. oh and i'm running out of ice cream and also hot chocolate. thaaanks mom...

it was then that she said "SODA? what's with you and soda? you never drank soda before." besides realizing the extent to which my mom really doesn't know anything about me (and my two coke minimum), i also realized she was right. i do have a serious junk food problem. i blame it mostly on my mom, who gives me copious amounts of it. i shot back at her that at least i'm drinking soda, cuz hey, it could be beer instead. it could be the six shots i took on saturday night for kimi's birthday (including three tequila shots in a row). it could be multiple $2 cosmos. it could be the incredible amount of beer i consumed two fridays ago before and during the del show on lower sproul. soda should really be the least of my mom's concerns.

but maybe i turn to junk food as solace when i can't/shouldn't have alcohol. and maybe i should be unabashed by my junk food dependency--i mean, i think aaron said it best on saturday when he said "why change a horse midstream?" but maybe you have to be drunk to understand that logic.

holla at a playa
i don't know what it was about this week. maybe it was the weather (a drastic change from rain to sun), or my lack of assignments due, or my new fanaticism for working out (three times this week!), or maybe it was the inordinate amount of time i spend chatting with kimi online. whatever it was, it definitely made this the week for HOLLAing. that is, hormones were elevated this week. it was the week for checkin dudes out on campus and thinking about guys to get at in different area codes in the future. in kimi's words, "we've outgrown the 415." yes, we are pimpin nationwide now.

on a not unrelated note, i got an internship in DC for the summer. yay!

preshpupp (10:48 PM): you should own a brothel but for dudes

lisa n da sky (6:42 PM): i'm gonna party like it's your birthday
preshpupp (6:42 PM): cool!
preshpupp (6:44 PM): where should we go after din din?
preshpupp (6:44 PM): i have nothing planned
preshpupp (6:44 PM): i don't even know who is going?
lisa n da sky (6:44 PM): who is confirmed
lisa n da sky (6:44 PM): who's on the guest list?
lisa n da sky (6:44 PM): i'm going to buy tickets at the door
lisa n da sky (6:44 PM): 271 8th
preshpupp (6:45 PM): you, jacqui, clee, aaron, chelsea, crystal
preshpupp (6:45 PM): haha
preshpupp (6:45 PM): 9th
lisa n da sky (6:45 PM): i'm going to 8th
preshpupp (6:45 PM): ahahha
preshpupp (6:45 PM): ok
lisa n da sky (6:45 PM): i'll hit up 9th after
preshpupp (6:45 PM): tell me if it is any good
preshpupp (6:45 PM): will there be cute guys there
lisa n da sky (6:45 PM): should be pretty hot

preshpupp (7:11 PM): did i tell you richard allard is in one of my classes?
lisa n da sky (7:11 PM): what???
lisa n da sky (7:11 PM): no
lisa n da sky (7:11 PM): was he all "hey baby girl"
preshpupp (7:11 PM): no way not at all
preshpupp (7:11 PM): and he's really good friends with braz
preshpupp (7:12 PM): i feel like braz is hot now...
preshpupp (7:12 PM): i haven't seen him
preshpupp (7:12 PM): but richard says girls jock him
lisa n da sky (7:17 PM): i'd get with braz
lisa n da sky (7:17 PM): too bad he wants to get with you
lisa n da sky (7:17 PM): :P
lisa n da sky (7:17 PM): invite them to your birthday!!!!
preshpupp (7:18 PM): if you want to get with braz...then i want to get with braz
lisa n da sky (7:19 PM): WHAT?
lisa n da sky (7:19 PM): stop!
lisa n da sky (7:20 PM): i have dibs
preshpupp (7:20 PM): what!?!
lisa n da sky (7:20 PM): braz was sooo nice when we hung out with him in new york
lisa n da sky (7:20 PM): he was hella cool and funny
lisa n da sky (7:20 PM): i'd holla at him like whoa
preshpupp (7:20 PM): what!
preshpupp (7:21 PM): you were in NYC with him!
lisa n da sky (7:21 PM): yeah we were lovers
preshpupp (7:21 PM): was he good
preshpupp (7:21 PM): he told me you were
lisa n da sky (7:22 PM): girl lemme tell you
lisa n da sky (7:22 PM): he is a BIG guy
preshpupp (7:22 PM): whoa!
preshpupp (7:22 PM): is he the reason why you broke up with sam
lisa n da sky (7:22 PM): nah i got with him before sam
preshpupp (7:22 PM): does he have ambition?
lisa n da sky (7:22 PM): check it out--he's like over 6 feet tall, green eyes
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): and he plays the trumpet
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): how hot is that
preshpupp (7:23 PM): what the hell
preshpupp (7:23 PM): now i ahve a crush on him.....
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): yeah he went to SOTA for the trumpet
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): and he played on one of sketchy's songs
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): sketchy's tape
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): and he rapped too i think
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): yeah
preshpupp (7:23 PM): and i haven't even seen him since like third grade
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): yes you have
preshpupp (7:23 PM): no i haven't
lisa n da sky (7:23 PM): at crystal's party
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): you took a picture with him, i have it!
preshpupp (7:24 PM): i don;t remember
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): hello???
preshpupp (7:24 PM): are you seriously!
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): you guys are hella cheesing
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): i gave you a copy
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): i think it was christmas
preshpupp (7:24 PM): the same night you told me to put on some make-up
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): YES
preshpupp (7:24 PM): i don't remember him at all
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): i'm not sure when that was...
lisa n da sky (7:24 PM): when was that?
preshpupp (7:25 PM): the night you were wearing the orange tank
preshpupp (7:25 PM): was he cute then
preshpupp (7:25 PM): why don't i remember this
lisa n da sky (7:25 PM): he is not bad looking...
preshpupp (7:26 PM): i have to see hiim now
lisa n da sky (7:26 PM): you guys took a hella cheesing pic
lisa n da sky (7:26 PM): and he told sketchy that he had a crush on you for hella long in alamo
lisa n da sky (7:26 PM): or a big crush on you
lisa n da sky (7:26 PM): like what all guys say
preshpupp (7:27 PM): dude....how is it i could have guys jock me at alamo and not now
preshpupp (7:27 PM): that's fucked up
lisa n da sky (7:28 PM): you need to put on more makeup!!!!
lisa n da sky (7:28 PM): shut up guys jock you like whoa
preshpupp (7:29 PM): yea...i leave impressions on guys like Ivan
preshpupp (7:29 PM): i want a cute trumpet player to like me
preshpupp (7:30 PM): actually he just has to be cute
lisa n da sky (7:30 PM): HAHA
lisa n da sky (7:30 PM): dude i'm sure you could get with braz without even trying
preshpupp (7:30 PM): dude..you're pumping me up
lisa n da sky (7:30 PM): why don't you invite them to your birthday?!??!?!?!
preshpupp (7:30 PM): ok i will
preshpupp (7:31 PM): but they stay in sc on the weekend
preshpupp (7:31 PM): dude...you should come down here one weekend
preshpupp (7:31 PM): and braz will be excited to see you
preshpupp (7:31 PM): just like how jon wong was..."i wish lisa was here"
lisa n da sky (7:32 PM): oh i just talked to freesia. that party was crystal's birthday (august) before sophomore year
lisa n da sky (7:32 PM): we've had that "you need to put on more makeup" joke for hella long!!!
preshpupp (7:32 PM): haha...its soo good
lisa n da sky (7:33 PM): dude whatever, guys like jon want to hang with me, while guys like braz want to get at you
preshpupp (7:33 PM): i was thinking about the "eww...ITS' ISAAC" joke the other day
preshpupp (7:33 PM): dude...we're dorks
preshpupp (7:34 PM): jon wond def. has a crush on you
preshpupp (7:34 PM): and im sure bra does too
preshpupp (7:34 PM): guys jock you
preshpupp (7:34 PM): "bra"...i mean braz...haha
lisa n da sky (7:40 PM): bra has a crush on me????
lisa n da sky (7:40 PM): cool!!!
preshpupp (7:40 PM): lol
lisa n da sky (7:40 PM): what do you want for your birthday biznatcvh
lisa n da sky (7:40 PM): adkja;nvo;ranmselkcvnasd
preshpupp (7:40 PM): exactly!
lisa n da sky (7:41 PM): i got ali a frisco tee shirt for her birthday
lisa n da sky (7:41 PM): we should all wear them on saturday
preshpupp (7:41 PM): i was just going to say that
preshpupp (7:41 PM): for reals!
lisa n da sky (7:42 PM): HAHA tell ali that when you invite her
lisa n da sky (7:43 PM): is richard hot now?
lisa n da sky (7:43 PM): i had traffic school with richard
lisa n da sky (7:43 PM): senior year, with honore too
preshpupp (7:47 PM): no richard is not hot
preshpupp (7:48 PM): clee thinks we're lesbos
preshpupp (7:48 PM): he says please no lesbo shit this weekend
lisa n da sky (7:49 PM): HAHA

it was so weird--my sister asked me which of the guys in "better luck tomorrow" did i think was cute, and right away my mom goes "parry shen? that parry shen guy?" it was a little weird that my mom knows him. laurie groans and goes, "mooom, he's like 29, no 39, and he's an acting teacher," as if that automatically made him un-jockable.

personally, john cho was hot like whoa in that movie and i'd do him ANY DAY (samson: "whatever, he doesn't have glasses"). i know he's the MILF guy; there was just something really sexy about him. the other dudes weren't that bad either. they each had their own thang goin for them. all i could think throughout the movie was that dude han was SO korean, especially when he took off his belt to beat his cousin with it. i think there will be a new wave of asian american male fetishes after this film. maybe?

i was walking home from class today to eat some ice cream, and this black woman in a car had "respect" by aretha franklin blaring with the windows down, and she was singing along at the top of her lungs and clapping with it. totally made my day. too bad my ice cream was melted when i got home. i'm having problems with my fridge--it's like there is no in-between temperature. everything in it becomes totally frozen if it's turned up; but if it's turned down, everything is melted or defrosted. ijuswanna eat some ice cream.

turn it up; turn it down
"jerk it out," the caesars (i saw them with soundtrack of our lives last week, and they were really good! they lead singer is mad cute, and he was looking at me, i swear. i kept looking at him and thinking, "GREEK" [as in greek god, not as in fraternities]. you'll see what i mean when they play the video on MTV.)
"seed 2.0," the roots (this song is DIRRTAY if you listen to the lyrics, but damn even i can get my shoulders movin' to this. i'd name my daughter rock n roll.)
anything by idlewild, death cab for cutie, and cat power (besides my first two sexual frustration songs, it's a mellow sort of week, with the rain and all)

GRoOVeroBber (8:12 PM): yo shorty, it's my birthday!

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A Bass Player Is A Lonely Hunter
Incubus is parting ways with its bass player, Dirk Lance, with the rockers citing "creative differences," which usually means the bassist wanted to get even more stoned during rehearsal but everyone else was already plenty stoned so the bassist just sat there all grumpy and refused to play and everyone was all like, whatever, dude if you can't hang, like, maybe you should go do a solo album or play in Celine Dion's backing band in Vegas, bitch, which set the bassist like, off, given how most bass players are totally nuts to begin with and who deeply believe no one can understand their deep and profound pain, or whatever. "We, as a band, would love to express our gratitude towards Dirk for an amazing 12 years of artistry and dedication," said singer Brandon Boyd, his hella cute ringlet curls glistening like god's own candy. "Now who wants to bring me twelve nubile porn star virgins, some premium olive oil, and a large snake?" he did not add, tenderly.

preshpupp (11:52 PM): are you drunk?
lisa n da sky (11:52 PM): yes!!!

"what are the evolutionary benefits of a big ass head?" --freesia

"we're the no-limit reserves." --freesia